The reasons as to why I love you have not changed since the day I began to truly love you. I love you because, despite my hard-headedness, you refuse to give up on me. You refuse to give up on anyone, even the people you hate the most. You have a tough exterior, but really you’re just a jellybean, kinda like me. We have a lot of things in common, and a lot of things different. We’re unique. We’re special. And, idk about you, but I see us making it. I see us running the road, and being part of that. You’re in my thoughts 85% of the time, which kinda scares me, but that’s gotta mean something. When I look into your eyes, I see the most beautiful girl that God has ever created, who is willing to love the person who loves her. And I honestly don’t feel worthy of that. Several times I’ve felt like you deserve a man better than me, and yet you stick around anyway, and I don’t know why. You forgive me, even when I committed the ultimate wrong. Being around you is intoxicating. I can tell you anything and everything. and despite everything the rational side of me says, I no longer care. I love you, I want you, I need you. Only you. I miss the days where we just sat together, saying nothing while watching the sun rise, or. All I want to do is impress you and make you happy, and be the man that you truly deserve, because I certainly am not that at this moment. A night doesn’t feel complete without calling you right before going to bed. Maybe this is all just a feeling, and maybe it’ll pass, but one, I highly doubt it, and two, I don’t care. I’ve burned out this line, but I honestly don’t want anyone else but you, And if we end up hating each other, or never talking to each other again, I at least have to give it my all. Give you my all. All I ask is that you lessen the pushing, and let me in, and let me be your best friend again lol. Please, if you no longer love me, or are gonna keep being distant and not change anything, I say this with all sincerity: cut me loose now. I don’t want to waste your time, I don’t want to waste my time, and I’ll heal faster over break lol. If I’m no longer making you happy, then what’s the pt? Just don’t use me either lol. I promise I’ll heal, don’t worry. But, if you’re willing to give me a shot, then I promise you that the guy you meet after Break will be better than the guy you said goodbye to. My love for you is more than a stupid chemical reaction, I know that now for a fact. And you are better to me than I make you out to be sometimes, I just need to stop taking it for granted. Despite everything you have put me through, the laughs, the torture, the happiness, at the end of the day and every night, I still love you, it’s that simple, yet complicated lol, but it’s the truth. I thank you, for every moment with you, good and bad, has been truly and utterly…
